it's 11:04 and I can't sleep. I have been so blind and lost for quite sometime after making the most stupid mistake of my life. Somehow someway, I never felt any regrets for doing what I did because I do have a lot of realization.
I was constantly in a dilemma between choosing the one I wanted and the one people thinks I deserve, and yes they were right. I thought choosing the one I wanted would me a better person and would make me feel happy..but I was wrong. I fell in a trap I made for myself. I was actually putting a stone in my head and creating my own problems. It's like the world was against me. People are ignoring me because I chose to be happy, as i thought, but I wasn't.
I tried to make the best of it making a scratch to a diamond, only to think that I was played and used. That's when the feeling of being lost sanked in. I was questioning myself why I allowed myself to be in this kind of ignorance and selfless generosity. Anyways, life can sometimes play your world and you don't realize it till somebody hits you so damn hard in the face. Oh well, how can it be so cool to be played by the one person you taught is the best for you? It sucks!
I thought I'd continue to be the worsest person others think I maybe for being so self centered and for choosing the wrong decision, hell no! I'm back and I'm ready to face the world! I did hurt a lot of people along the way, but I'm deeply sorry. Now, I'm picking up the pieces again and regaining everything I lost. I will bring back one diamond I lost because of being so insesitive and totally blinded by inferior life forms existing on earth.
As what I have said before, it will pass..and yes it did.
I have found myself and not just that, I know now where I belong....
